I am living through my 20's the time of life when you question everything and try to find what you really want to do with your life. There has been a lot of confusion over the last few years, a lot of odd jobs and strange bosses. What I am discovering is what is important to ME. I am learning who I am as an individual, as a community member and as a human on this earth. I am finding my place. I am finding the voice within. I am searching for my path, where to go? What job should I be working at? What do I even want to DO in life?
So tonight I wrote down all my goals and wants and plastered my wall with them. I'm building a wall of goals and ambitions.
The first step was to figure out what my main values were. Mine are Security, Creativity, Freedom, Success and Family. My main life goals are: Own my own Farm, Have Security financially, Have a loving partner, Have close friends I can depend on and who I love, Create, Play and Teach.
My mind has been a mess lately. I don't know what I want to do career wise. I don't want to be a cute little crafter just working away hours and hours at a sewing machine doing what the ladies over in China are doing for so much less. I don't really want to work for myself. I don't want to be solo, I want to be a part of something big. I want to be part of a team. I want to work in a place I can play, draw and laugh. I want to teach, create and explore.
I realize there has been something hiding for a long time. A little curiosity, a little dream, a little tugging at my heart. I used to love watching cartoons and wish that I could do that someday, that I could be a part of it. I used to draw comics and come up with my own characters. I have been drawing since I was a little one. I don't want to be an animator though. I went to school with animators, I don't want that world. What I want is to be an illustrator/designer/creative can't I have that? Can't I merge the graphics with the love of cartoons and illustration? Then I remembered.. I have always LOVE Nickelodeon. I grew up with them, I have their logo burned into my memory. I love their marketing materials, their ads, their colors and fun wonky designs. Tonight I picked up a Nickelodeon magazine and then it occurred to me. No animator made this, graphic designers make this happen, illustrators make this happen! I don't have to be an animator to be a part of it all. I already have the way paved for me. There is a spot for me.. this little dream can be a reality.
So here it is. I want to work for Nickelodeon. I WILL work for them. I want to work for companies like them. I want to illustrate, sew, craft and live in my fantasy world of creatures. I want to make this a reality.
I would love to be hired as a graphic designer and illustrator. I want to draw spongebob squarepants. I want to draw coloring books and posters and advertisements. I want to be an art director for the Nickelodeon magazine. Wouldn't that be the greatest company to work for! Screw this corporate design world! I want color, fun and weirdness.
I am going to work on re-designing my website to reflect my new goals in design. Finally the craft and the design will merge.
These two designers inspired me tonight:
http://www.suziblade.com/lalenafisher/index.html
http://www.sam-gilbey.com/
I like what Sam says in his bio:
A meticulous graphic designer, Sam loves to create in a wide range of styles, whether that's a cleanly designed, flexible template for a large scale accessible website, or letting loose on an experimental microsite. But rather than being restricted to the web, he also designs for print, and has created logos and branding solutions. Creativity drives him, not the medium.
Lalena Fisher takes her handmade items and animates with them! She has done backgrounds for websites, animations and books. Bringing sculpture, illustration, crafting together. Her work inspires me and is what I want to be doing. Her resume is so crazy and I want mine to look like that!
I'm setting my ambitions beyond Portland, beyond my upbringing, beyond my schooling, so far beyond my reality, to the dream world. Where it can become my new reality.
Who I want to work for:
NICKELODEON STUDIOS
Cartoon Network
Crafting Magazines
Fashion Designers
Artists and Illustrators
Children Clothing Manufacturers/Designers
The cool thing about Lolly-tots is that I can explore so many techniques and mediums. I love making things for kids and those with a child's heart still inside. I love working with color, texture, fabrics and thread. I love the little pincushion sitting next to my computer monitor. I love making things and I love selling things. I love creating and showing my creations to other people. Lolly-tots is my way of expressing my ever changing evolving soul of an artist.
Thanks for following along with me on this journey.
I am living through my 20's the time of life when you question everything and try to find what you really want to do with your life. There has been a lot of confusion over the last few years, a lot of odd jobs and strange bosses. What I am discovering is what is important to ME. I am learning who I am as an individual, as a community member and as a human on this earth. I am finding my place. I am finding the voice within. I am searching for my path, where to go? What job should I be working at? What do I even want to DO in life? 
The first step was to figure out what my main values were. Mine are Security, Creativity, Freedom, Success and Family. My main life goals are: Own my own Farm, Have Security financially, Have a loving partner, Have close friends I can depend on and who I love, Create, Play and Teach. 
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